05.04.05
Posted in Old Rantings at 7:33 pm by mdellinger
Still recovering from the pounding Uncle Sam gave me but I’m hanging in there. I’m glad that things are kind of settling down news-wise, I was starting to get sick of all of the Pope stories every day.
But now everybody’s talking about this runaway bride (Full story), which is really the biggest crock ever. I mean this woman goes for about a week and skips town and doesn’t tell anybody, and then her fiance takes her back??? This guy needs to head for the hills, call all bets off, cash out…etc, etc.
I mean the girl obviously has some emotional problems and some kind of complex that would make her do something like this. Anybody that has a manhunt called after them for more than a couple days and doesn’t think to go “Well maybe I could at least call my mom, or a girlfriend, so they don’t think my man murdered me,” needs to be locked up and examined.
But getting away from all of that…I’ve been waiting for my new gig to happen and I was starting to worry that it wasn’t going to happen for a little while. But I just came in yesterday and they’ve already hired a new guy. So I’m hoping that this might be a sign that things might be moving along quicker than I thought.
I’ve just gotta keep my head up and just tough it out for just a little while longer.
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04.13.05
Posted in Old Rantings at 5:55 pm by mdellinger
Ok taxes have come around and really screwed me over this year. I mean my savings account was growing pretty nicely until I had to pay the government for all the work I did. (That still doesn’t completely make sense to me) But half of last year I was working under contract, which means that my employer wasn’t paying any taxes on me and nothing was withheld on my paychecks. Long story short, I end up owing a good chunk of change to the good ol’ USA and am transported back to my money status about a year ago.
On top of owing that money for taxes, I also have a speeding ticket from the ‘Speed Trap Capital of the World’ Gainesville, Georgia. And while I got pulled over at exactly the same time as a friend of mine (we were following each other home), his ticket was about $80 cheaper than mine because I had another speeding ticket within the last five years (exactly five years ago actually)
So as if I haven’t written enough checks to the government, I have to write one out to the City of Gainseville for so graciously letting pass quickly through their lovely town. AND it has to be there by this Friday, April 15th, so as you can see from the date on this post, I had to send it priority for an extra $13. (Yet another payment that goes to the government)
It may sound like I’m bitter about this whole thing, and it is mostly because I am. It just gets to me that they can set up a speed trap around an industrial area, when the speed limit is WAY too low for that area anyway. They are obviously just doing it to raise money for the city, which is about the most corrupt bassackwards thing I’ve ever heard of. (If you’ve ever driven through the main part of Gainesville you’ll know what I’m talking about.)
But I hope Uncle Sam finds lots of great things to spend my money on. Maybe I can get the road by my apartment widened so that more than one car can fit on it at a time. What’s that? Not likely? Ok, well maybe next quota time then.
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03.30.05
Posted in Old Rantings at 9:05 pm by mdellinger
I’ve been working a new shift lately and I’m not really enjoying it too much. It gives me some free time, but it’s usually when everyone else is working, so I can’t really do much of anything. I’ve been told by my boss that they want to use me for this new project that’s coming up, and that it would be more of a real schedule and closer to real hours. I’m just waiting for that day to come. He has said that it will probably some time around May or June, but I can’t tell.
For right now I just kind of have to grin and bear it. I don’t have weekends really anymore, so when I want to go do something for the weekend I have to use my PTO days. It’s just a good thing that I have so many to use, but still it’s not really worth not being able to do anything with my free time.
I just have to keep telling myself that this will all be worth the trouble and someday it will really pay off. But for right now the waiting is the hardest part.
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02.28.05
Posted in Old Rantings at 12:17 am by mdellinger
Why is it that when I get around all my friends and we start drinking that I start to neglect the one person that I really care about the most? I don’t know if it’s because I don’t see my friends as much as I see her so I feel like I have to treat them better or what the deal is. I have to stop thinking that I can please everybody and just consider her feelings more when we’re hanging out with everyone.
I tell her all the time that she’s the greatest thing in the world, which I truly believe, but then when we go out in a crowd I make her feel like crap sometimes. I need to treat her the same way I always try to treat her and not leave her feeling awful like I can tend to do unintentionally.
We really do get along great and I think we’re perfect for each other. We really do relate on so many levels that it’s scary sometimes. I know that I’ve found what love is with her.
On another note, (and another bad pun) I’ve started playing guitar a lot more lately and I really want to keep that up. I’ve known so many people that have been playing for the longest time and were really good and then they just gave up playing altogether. I don’t want to become one of those people. In the words of Van Halen, I gotta finish what I started.
I want to do everything I can to the best of my potential and I’m willing to put in the time and the effort to do that. But sometimes I realize that I have to control myself and my actions to think about others first. And while I may step on some toes I have to think about the people that really matter first.
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02.05.05
Posted in Old Rantings at 1:56 am by mdellinger
Whitney and I have just celebrated our 7th anniversary together. It seems so wierd to think about that we’ve been together for seven years. It just doesn’t seem like it’s been that long. Seem like just yesterday I was pulling into her driveway in my big pink van (I’ll have to find pictures) and the next thing I know (well not exactly the next thing, that time apart was pretty long) we’ve got own place and we’re living together (in sin some would say.
But I have to say it has been the best seven years of my life. And I feel like we’re even closer now than we were back then.
Tonight we went out on a date and had a great time together, just like we always do. We went to Ruth’s Chris Steakhouse in Buckhead, which I have to say was pretty good, but damn expensive. I’m not so worried about it now that we’re both making money, but I’m glad we only do that as a once in a while thing. Just looking around that place you could tell that we were the youngest ones there. But it was alright we didn’t care…as long as we were getting the treatment like everybody else it didn’t matter.
I’m happier right now than I’ve been in a long time. I’ve got a ton on my mind, and a lot to deal with, but it’s not really phasing me as much. It’s nice to have somewhere there that you can just talk to.
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02.01.05
Posted in Old Rantings at 4:15 am by mdellinger
It’s coming up on Whitney and I’s seventh anniversary tomorrow. Now I know that’s a really long time (and definitely a lot longer than any relationship I’ve ever been in) but I still haven’t put a ring on her finger, and I’m sure she’s starting to chomp at the bit for it.
I’ve been feeling a little bit of regret for going off and buying this expensive computer, when I haven’t even bought her a ring yet. That’s definitely next on my list of big purchases.
I’m not scared that she’s going to leave me or anything, but I think I’ve waited long enough, and I’ve put her through waiting too long now. The only thing is now I’ll have to pay off this computer and then go into even more debt. I’m just hoping that I can’t get enough work on the side to pay it off a little more quickly, and I can start making payments for a ring.
I know my family is ready for a wedding too. I don’t want to just do if for them, cause it’s been so long. I want to do it when both of us are ready to do it….But I do want to do it while most of my family is still around to see it.
It seems like now I have less time than I’ve ever had in my life, and it all goes by so quick. I mean I go about my every day to day life (which isn’t like most people’s day in/day out schedule) and then next thing I know another season has passed.
Well I hope that she isn’t as concerned about getting I ring as I think she is…cause really what I want more than anything is for her to be happy. I’ll just have the rest of my life to show that to her.
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01.26.05
Posted in Old Rantings at 9:19 pm by mdellinger
Well a nother week or so has gone by and I’m still working a wierd schedule, it looks like I’ll probably be on this setup for a while so I don’t know how long it will last. My main problem with it right now is that I have to go an orientation so I can get put on full time benefits, but the only time they do the orientation is at 11 am on Monday, after I have just worked 8 hours and slept for maybe two. I was supposed to go and do this the other day but I overslept (but who can blame me for not knowing I had to do it until that night, and then having to stay up all night, sleep for two hours, and get ready and drive back to Atlanta?)
I’m really not looking forward to trying this again, but I really want to get setup with those benefits. I’ve worked so hard to get this point, and now my body is preventing me from doing it.
Lately I’ve been looking into getting a new computer. The one I have is fine and it works great (for the most part). But I’m thinking about getting a new Mac Powerbook. We used to use those things at UGA and they are sweet. Also I’ve just kinda gotten used to the one at work…and have found that macs are a lot more stable than pcs…and I’ll need that doing websites and stuff.
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Anyway, it’s the next week and I’ve bought the computer. It should be shipped to me on Thursday, so now I’m just counting down the days.
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01.20.05
Posted in Old Rantings at 10:47 pm by mdellinger
Just noticed I’ve started neglicting this already. I knew that would happen, I’ve just been so busy lately I haven’t really had time to. My truck has been acting up some lately and I’ve started looking into getting a new one. The problem is I’ve never done that before and there’s a lot of stuff out there to look at. I also have other expenses that I need to take care of now, and I don’t know if I want to throw another one in there on top of everything else.
I’m psyched about this weekend though, the Falcons are playing in Philly for the NFC championship. I haven’t ever seen the Falcons look this good, I hope they show up and play this weekend. It could be a really good game.
I’m about to get off work (no overnight tonight) so I’m taking off.
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01.04.05
Posted in Old Rantings at 1:55 am by mdellinger
It’s now a new year, and it feels like the time has just flown by. It still seems like it should be the middle of August right now. It definitely feels a lot different from last year.
After a year of being on my own and out of college I have to say that I’m pretty happy with where I am right now. I didn’t think at the beginning of last year that I would be sitting where I am right now (especially at 1 AM). It just goes to show that perserverance really does pay off.
After spending most of last year leaving messages and just trying to get out of that downward spiral of a job that I had, I started thinking that maybe I just wasn’t meant to be doing this. Maybe I needed to look at another field. But if you really want something you can’t just stop trying for it, because really what’s the worst that can happen?
The only thing that kept me calling everyday was the dead-end job I had and a desire to do something better. I had actually started to get stuck in the routine of going to work there and doing the same repetitive work everyday. While at the time it kept me on my feet, it wasn’t what I wanted at all.
Now that a year has passed and I’m finally where I want to be I feel like there’s a load that has been lifted off my shoulders. Aside from the stress of working all night, and trying to fit in a real life around sleeping, I enjoy wha I’m doing now and have to say I’m pretty glad.
It’s also a good thing that Whitney and I are living together now. There are definitely times when I need someone there to talk to and that I can talk about things just to get them off my mind. She’s really a good listener too, much better than I am most of the time.
I’m excited about the new year. It’s looking like my schedule is changing some now that the overnight guy is back from vacation and I won’t have to be pulling as many overnights. Hopefully after a while it won’t be any, but I’ll take one or two here and there over everyday.
I’m also hoping that this recent disaster will slow down some. It seems that as the day goes on the death toll just keeps climbing. To think that on the first night it was bad enough when they were saying 300 people have died, now over 155,000 (Tsunami death toll)
Despite the devastation this has caused, it is nice see the world coming together and helping out. It just shows that when shit really does start hitting the fan, there are still some people there with some decency.
Here’s hoping for a good 2005.
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12.26.04
Posted in Old Rantings at 6:34 am by mdellinger
I had to work another over night tonight (and yes it is Christmas night [now the next morning]) and what should happen? ….Only the biggest earthquake to hit the world in the last 40 years…Earthquake Rocks SE Asia
Granted I’ve only been here for less than month and I have gotten the shaft on this shift and been kind of stuck here to fend for myself in the middle of the night…but I think I pulled it off alright. It’s tough to try to do something right when you’re at a new job without someone there to ask questions to and make sure you’re doing what you should be. But I think I’m starting to get a feel for this and picking up little things here and there that people can’t really teach you.
I’m hoping to be put on full time soon, and I pray to God that I don’t have to keep up with this shift for much longer. Although I have to say that it does have its bonuses. But I would gladly trade it in a second for a 9-5 Monday through Friday. Most people don’t really appreciate having a regular schedule and getting regular holdays off (like oh say, Christmas). But I can’t even tell from week to week when I may have to come in for these overnights, or if I’ll have to work on what normal people call a ‘National Holiday.’
Only time will tell if things get better, but from where they stand now, they can’t get much worse.
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